I don’t think you should pine for anyone anymore because it can waste your precious time. By the time you realize what you’ve done, you won’t be able to regain back the time you’ve lost. At least now you know and there’s only one thing to do: move on. It may be slow and agonizing but it is one of the emotional baggage that you would not want to be carrying around you for as long as you can remember, because it can be very tiring.
Sometimes we can be genuinely happy with someone but you need to remember too, if it is not meant to be yours, it will never be. It is best to always think and assume the worst or never place an expectation on someone because at the end of the day, you are just going to disappoint yourself if everything is not up to par.
It has happened so pointless to cry or agonize over it.
Don’t think too much about how lonely you’ve become and instead use that power and feeling and channel it to something positive. For example you can channel all your energy into your work or devote it into doing things you like such as reading or watching movies.
You’re still young and there’s so much more room for maturity to go. Just keep this in mind, Gem: don’t keep making the same mistakes.
If you want and can, always divert your thoughts to happy… happy thoughts.
Thanks so much Kyels!